Chaos in it’s finest form.

Victoria but better known as Vicky or ‘scuit; a fifteen year old girl with a taste for trouble. I was born to a Mother and Father on the 6th of February in Cambridge, UK. It's a nice place, I've never lived there though. I'm complicated. I have however lived in various other places around the UK. I’m currently doing my second year of GCSEs in Maths, English, Science, RE, Food Technology, Media, History, French and ICT. Thats the last year of High School, thankfully.

School can be a pain. I used to do really well in school until about year 8, I began to slip and am now really badly paying the price for it. My mind wanders a lot and I fall asleep quite often. If I’m not in the mood for the lesson I’ll mess around and fiddle and end up loosing out. My mother is now constantly having to remind me how much of a failure I am becoming. I failed my Maths & French GCSE mocks. Hopefully I’ll manage to revise enough to pass the real things. Anyway, school isn’t really that interesting.

My life out of school pretty much revolves around music, my laptop and my friends. Lets start with music, I adore it. I used to play 4 instruments but now don’t regularly practice any. I wish I still had my piano. I do still have my violin & guitar so may take them up again one day. If you were wondering, I used to also play the recorder like most English primary school kids. Not planning to take that up again. But the music I love the most is live music. I am constantly planning gigs and have been to so many this year that I have money for nothing else. My gig list stands at:
+ Enter Shikari, Hundred Reasons, Your Demise / 2007
+ Enter Shikari, Fell Silent, P-Dex / 2008
+ In Case Of Fire, Black Tide, Dir En Grey, Bring Me The Horizon, Mindless Self Indulgence @ Kerrang! Tour 2009
+ Bullet For My Valentine, Fight Star, In Case Of Fire @ TCT Gig March 2009
+ Senses Fail, The First / 2009
+ N-Dubz, Tinchy Stryder, Stevie Hoang, Fe-Nix (This was actually epic even if it was the kinda of music I don’t usually listen to.) / 2009
+ Cage The Elephant, Glory Glory, Uh Ohs / 2009
+ Underline The Sky (a local band.) / 2009 x 5
+ A Fate Untold, A World Apart, Oceans Upon Us (more localish bands.) / 2009
+ All Time Low, The Audition, The Friday Night Boys / 2009
+ Enter Shikari, The Devil Wears Prada / 2009
As I said, many. There are loads planned for next year. I have realized that live music is the one thing that makes me blissfully happy no matter how bad everything else is. That’s the real reason I refuse to give up my plans of going to gigs that I will never get to. I just want to hang onto that feeling. So friends? Since the middle of 2008 I have been spending time with a group of people I call The Crew. They are about 30 people who I go to school with. I see them every school day and at least 1 day most weekends. They keep me sane. There are of course people within that group that I spend more time with but it’s hard being really close to so many people. I adore them though. For everything. I do seem to have a problem with keeping a “best friend”. I do things that annoy people and loose them a lot. It really hurts and I spent a whole year hating someone because this happened. This wasn’t just girly hate, this was real, vile, soul killing, hate. It nearly destroyed me. With the new year came a new me. I finally spoke to someone who had really hurt me and for a few months I was just happy. Now things are changing and I’m slowly going back to old ways, this upsets me. The thing is, I know that I will never get as bad as I was last year. Certain terrible circumstances have proved that.

I get angry a lot. If I feel you have done something wrong prepare to be shouted at. I have strong opinions but I don’t always succeed in explaining them properly. I often find myself saying “you’d understand if you were in my head.” Some subjects get me really angry, homophobia and religion being the main ones. If you’re against homosexuals then don’t even bother talking to me, I will rip you to shreds. If you’re going to preach to me about how your religion is better I’ll battle till the death. I’m pretty much an Atheist but I’m open to being proved wrong. That’s what I need, proof. I’m that kind of person.

I think I’m a pretty strong person but there are certain things that break me. Friendship & family are the main ones. I don’t really care about boys anymore, I know I’ll never find a relationship that will work the way I want. Hey, there is always the future though. For my future I just want to look in the mirror and say “Yeah, I’m fucking happy how I am.” I have no idea what I want to do in life. I’m working on it.

So children, to summarise.. I’m Vicky, I’m 15, I’m a bit weird, a bit happy, a bit unhappy, I like to party and I’m not working hard enough. Easy. (:

music?

Enter Shikari, The King Blues, Cage The Elephant, Gallows, In Case Of Fire, Green Day, The Blackout, Fightstar, Bullet For My Valentine, Silverstein, A Day To Remember, The First, The Academy Is, Fell Silent, KanYe West, JamisonParker, A7x, Rise Against, Hawthorne Heights, Forever The Sickest Kids, Aiden, Dizzee Rascal, MGMT, Story Of The Year, Marilyn Manson, All Time Low, Biffy Clyro, The Cribs, The Sex Pistols,Black Tide N-Dubz, Bring Me The Horizon, The Clash, Refused, Mindless Self Indulgence, Crystal Castles, Escape The Fate (Pre-Craig. I just preferred Ronnie, sorry.), Gallows, From First To Last, Guns N’ Roses, The Libertines, Babyshambles, Lostphrophets, Madina Lake, Nirvana, Pinkly Smooth, Mayday Parade, Rage Against The Machine, Say Anything, One Night Only, Senses Fail, Taking Back Sunday, Underoath, Soko, Alesana, The Used, The Wombats, Yellowcard, Zebrahead, 3Oh!3, and many more. I’m a mainly alternative girl but every now and then my tastes will venture out. ;)

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